Tuesday, August 30, 2005

on a random note

allow me to charm you.
let these words warn you.
a changeling, a dangerous creature.
keep me at a distance and you are forever mine.
will keep you dangling on a string.
carrying your bobbing heart
on a red string.

on somedays i like myself and on somedays i don't. there are days when things begin to make sense and then as suddenly the thread is lost and i am left grappling with the fast unfolding yarn, slipping out of my hands. I want to read words warm like claret on a winter afternoon. There is somewhere I have got to be, there is someone else i forgot to be. Sunshine on water a thousand stars dance. warm skin blushes to warmer hues of desire. a yearning a longing; dont want to be buried under ashes of unrealised desires.

50 comments:

Anil said...

a random not indeed but filled with such little intimate images...may you find peace where ever you go, what ever you are...just dont forget to love and hope...

Pallavi said...

SIGH Sunshine on my back and the sound of tickling stream while I watch the pine trees sway and fill the air with their perfume... SIGH

africanfragments said...

love your blog,.. i truly believe there is no room in life for regrets,..follow your heart, and you should never be burried under ashes of unrealised desires

bablu said...

Are you talking about your dog ???

deewani said...

I agree.. follow your heart and if it gets broken it will just make you stronger next time. Nothing in life is perfect, if it was it would be boring!

. : A : . said...

Very nice use of images in the second portion to convey emotions.

Patry Francis said...

Once again, a beautiful post.

I've been trying to email you to send the poetry interview, but keep getting a notification of failure. Is something wrong with your email address?

stella said...

this is like musical poetry that speaks from depths of my heart. thanks gulnaz for such a lovely piece!

gulnaz said...

Anil - thanks for the blessings....feels nice! :)

Pallavi- already itching for another holiday! hehe :)

africanfragments- thank you so much and welcome to my space, hope you find your way again here. :)

bablu- feel free to interpet it in whatever it reads to you.

Deewani- nah perfect is not boring, sometimes. ;)

.:A:. - u really think so? Thanks! ;)

Patry- its wonderful to be told so by someone whose writing you admire yourself. :) thanks and hey have sent you an email...have no idea why your mails were not getting thru.

Stella- am glad it speaks to your heart! thanks!

finnegan said...

Consider me warned Gulnaz.
I am forever yours
dangling bobbing
heart and all

I sometimes lose the thread
Whenever I try to spin a yarn.

Verification Word: bxoxqjsf

Ash said...

Lovely, Gulnaz.

Unrealised desires ? Well honey, if you know your desire, then you can act on it and realise it.
But I suspect it's the other way - you have unfulfilled desires, but don't yet realize what those desires are ... I know just what you mean, an dI'm afraid I haven't figured it out either ! :)

Sue hardy-Dawson said...

I just been catching up, don't be anyone else, I would never be able to find your blog. Seriously, liking our selves is something we all struggle with at times so being some one else wouldn't help, learn to have realistic expectations of your own human condition, you are a wonderful talented person what could be better than that?

thoughts said...

Keep me at a distance and you are forver mine - and y don't I like that idea !

There is somewhere I have got to be, there is someone else i forgot to be -- the March Hare and truly me :)

anumita said...

You are right! Some days even I like myself and some days I dont. By the way, Gulnaaz, ever thought of publishing a book?

sirbarrett said...

charming girl,
I'm afraid you've intrigued me, and your warning came too late. I unravel at your sensual words.

small squirrel said...

oh yes, I have been here, recognized bits of myself in every weaving, unfolding, unraveling yarn... such beautiful words you have patched together gulnaz...

I hope enough of your desires are realized to make you blissfully happy, and enough go unrealized to keep you motivated.

Russell Ragsdale said...

People are flawed, that is the simple truth. If one feels they have reached a significant level of self-awareness and have not discovered a healthy element of self-hate then one is still living in denial. We are also constantly changing, this can give us hope. Bottom line: we are ok right up to the time we begin to hurt one another. Then again, we need a certain element of danger to keep us stimulatated; boredom is a killing jar. You are a dangerous lady and we love you!

Lorena said...

i'll drink to that gulnaz !!!*cheers* :)

"carrying your bobbing heart
on a red string"

beautiful imagery. i love the poem. very teasing. :)

rdl said...

I love your poetry/post. It speaks volumes. I'll be back to read more.

mermaid said...

Your another person on my wavelength today. Like The Alchemist says, your only duty to society is to follow your "Personal Legend".

Tomas said...

consider me charmed
{sigh}

transience said...

that was such a beautiful thing to come back to, gulnaz. you have my heart on your string. no joke.

gulnaz said...

wyfinn- what a lovely addition sir finn! :)) i mean the lines and i don't believe you lose the thread at all, your posts don't. thanks. :) wv=wahufwy

Ash- thanks darling! glad you got me. my mind is perhaps lost in the last winters fog. :)

Sue- was wondering when you are weekend is getting over! :) thanks for the vote of confidence, it comes at a much needed time.

thoughts- i don't know why but it does happen to be so, sometimes.
:)

anumita- not really...i have hardly written nothing apart from here besides my life is very boring. ;)
doesnt it feel good when you like youself but i guess , liking yourself too much can you to hell. :)

sirbarrett- :) don't be charmed by me but let yourself unravel at my words, that is fine. :) am barely intriguing. :)

small squirrel- thank you so much! its wonderful, wonderful when your words find resonance in an another heart! thank you also for your wise wishes! :))

Russell- :) oh thank you! i love you guys too! i like be called dangerous! :)
have been dwelling on my mistakes and it makes me angry with myself! i have thrown away my life.
i don't know where the self-loathing comes from but yes a lil bit keeps the head screwed on.

Lorena- *cheers* gulp, gulp, gulp! hehehe
teasing, ah its just me. lol..

rdl- thank you for appreciation and for stopping by. i hope you come back again. :)

Mermaid- i hope you are fine, have been checking at your blog regularly. i hope you are doing fine!
The Alchemist is right and who was the other person on your wavelength? :)

Tomas- *giggles* the warning lights are blinking. hehe

trans- don't worry i'll take special care of your heart! :)) thanks darling, good to see you back!

. : A : . said...

Yes, I definitely do. These in particular,

"Sunshine on water a thousand stars dance. warm skin blushes to warmer hues of desire. a yearning a longing; dont want to be buried under ashes of unrealised desires."

johnny boy said...

Have realised one thing, your posts, which bring out your feelings, depend a lot on imagery and visual thinking. Its very obvious. Nice, keep it going. Some people dream in Multicolor, and looks like you are one among them...
When the reader's mind paints a picture of what u have written, thats a sign of having gotten your point thru, in the best possible way!

gulnaz said...

.:A:. - thanks...your appreciation means a lot to me.

johnny boy- i think everybody dreams in multicolor. :) it is really nice of you to take the time to leave behind such an encouraing comment, thanks! :)

finnegan said...

wahufwy This is derived from a word found on an ancient Babylonian tablet which roughly translates: "Waiting at my house under the freeway"

W.V.= CGMIVZ

indigo said...

I love the seeming ease you have with imagery in your writing. It's so intoxicating to read you.

Potted-flower said...

Love is so painful, alas my love is so damn cute. thats pretty. You know, you can come to my blog to if you want.

Please.

mermaid said...

Cassandra was.

Cocaine Jesus said...

that is something else. spectacular. sensual. sad. everything i like in one neat package.

afp763389 said...

... :)

gulnaz said...

finn- lol. CGMIVZ= ciggarettes missed! :) this is the silent cry of the nicotine deprived.

WV= hotvi...french for 'Oh, stylish me!' this is found at the tip of most people's tounges.

Indigo- wow! thanks!! :))

P-f- of course i will go to your blog. am sorry if i don't visit often just pressd for time. :(

Mermaid- okie!

CJ- hey good to see you back from your holiday! am quite stunned by the praise...thanks! will visit your blog soon. :)

afp- :)

Brood Mode said...

"dont want to be buried under ashes of unrealised desires."

My sentiments exactly

beautiful post

iamnasra said...

this poem is so different from one you I read of you...

I mean the style
This is more into the challenge and keeping the one who read it to be all prepared and on alert

Kep it up

finnegan said...

it wasn't so silent here. would you believe that i have a little Word Verification Reader application which actually pronounces these things? i didn't think so.

in any case, my new one here is: wxhvb

what do you make of it gulnaz? i've got "wax husband's virile bobber" (sorry)

stan laurel said...

I have always enjoyed your poetry and prose. Forgive me for not including you in my invites sooner.

just sayin' said...

very nice. i love the Anais Nin quote.

gulnaz said...

finn- it must be making funny lil sounds, lol. :)
wxhvb= wickeb! that is an affectionate sounding wicked. :)

Stan laurel- I am glad you enjoy my stuff, thanks! :)

Morgan- Thanks! :) hope to see you again too!

Cocaine Jesus said...

clmndroc??? this particular word verification sounds like a sexually transmitted disease.

gulnaz said...

CJ- lol a terrible affliction indeed! wv=xwhoxjt

rusty said...

Dont be buried under the ashes of unrealised dreams.....instead jump on them and reach for the stars......

gulnaz said...

rusty- thanks! and thank you so much for stopping by and commenting, do come again now. :)

timeintotime said...

Lifestrings. Alive on strings.

Rhymes which echo here-truths and near-truths.

And moments when your words, ascending, dance like sunshine on water.

Jaxe said...

Hello Gulnaz! *hug*

This piece is so mystical yet real. I love reading your *warning* . My subconscious is always talking like that to me too ;-) Awesome work, I always enjoy how a smile begins to crease my mouth every time I read one of your posts ;-)

Have a great weekend G! See you sooooooon.

j

gulnaz said...

time*time- wow!!! am stunned!!! thank you so much!! that was beautiful!! :))

Jaxe- heyyy *hug* that is a huge compliment!!! ...and it is making me smile silly! keep coming, i always love hearing from you. have a great weekend too! :)) cya.

Jyotsna said...

mjmiOh simply and truly beautiful..reveals a changing and wondrous side of yours..
And yes i like you and many others feel so differently about myself every day that i just had to agree with what you have written!
:)

gulnaz said...

Jyo- am glad that you appreciate it so! feels good! there are so many sides to all of us.

yvaine said...

dont want to be buried under ashes of unrealised desires.

Ah, this strikes a chord with me. It's wonderful how you connect with strangers like me through your beautiful words.

gulnaz said...

yvaine- we are not really strangers...we are just not familiar with each other. :) thanks, glad you could connect, its a good feeling.