Monday, August 15, 2005

lost in nothingness

estranged words, whispery and fluffy as clouds. bits of sentences twirling in a whirlpool raked by incomplete thoughts each one overtaking another. my mind feels like the freeway on a cold and windy day. if only i could catch them all down and turn them into words big and flowing like the river, then maybe they will carry me further into making sense of it all.

45 comments:

Me said...

My mind is lost in the maze of your words.......still trying to recover.....
I only wish i could have a poetic bent of mind like you......

Lorena said...

but if not making sense sounds so wonderful like this then please stay here. i love this. you are lost but you found some beauty with words here. this is a favorite of mine :)

Moon said...

HI,
and i'm answering you here, after a post you made at my page(and i want to thank you for that)
I am not an artist my self, but, i tend to agree with you.
looks to me, as if an artist is some one who perceive reality and react to it in the only way he knows how, and it is by his art, his intimate /inner interpretation of what he see and feels...
BTW
i love your poems!
they are curvy and colorful and one can smell and touch reality in a very saturated way through your eyes.

Ash said...

I feel as lost as you are ... and have an inexplicable urge to help you gather the fluttering thoughts, so I may see the sense in your mind...

johnny boy said...

Mmmm.... Nice one... Not a post that could be read side by side, with a cup of coffee :-) Needed some application of thought!
Makes a lotta sense....

Sue hardy-Dawson said...

So sorry to hear about your dog it's a horrible feeling and nothing makes it any better, will drop by later to catch up on all your writing

Keshi said...

sometimes not making sense makes sense to someone else...and that's what u did to me...so beautifully careless and independent...

Keshi.

Mridula said...

If I were to say the same thing It would read like 'I am confused' 'Don't know what to say' or something like that. A poem out of it? Now that is priceless.

Cocaine Jesus said...

blimey, you arrived in a clapped out ford and now you are driving an Aston Martin. Terrific words Gulnaz.

KJ said...

beautiful piece.
Clap clap clap

KJ

Misreflection said...

lovely, you've made something out of nothing :)..

iamnasra said...

it takes nothing to become something great way of putting this...

Gulnaz I forgot to ask ..did think of my request ...

gulnaz said...

Avik- aww you are sweetie!! am i that confusing, i thought i was simple. my mind has a bent, a dent if you may wish to call it so but is it poetic, who is to say.

Lo- hey sweetie am glad you could see the beauty in it, which i can't right now being in the midst of it. thanks a ton for the appreciation, feels good!

Moon- well you are very luxurious with your praise! :) its important to be honest and its not the easiest thing in the world. I havent studied art myself either.

Ash- yes please! :) i'm going through a strange phase and i don't have any answers.

johnny boy- what could you read my posts with if not coffee? :) well, keep coming again here, maybe we will find the answer to that one. :)

Sue- yes, it is horrible!!
I am glad you are home and i hope you had a fantastice holiday, looking forward to reading about it at yours.

Keshi- hey that's a lovely colour, i love it!!! i wore something exactly that shade yesterday! I am glad it did that for you and thank you so much for your lovely words. please come by again!

Mridula- hey there is nothing wrong with those matter-of-fact phrases, they are just as fine!

Cj- you are a lamborgini to say that!! :)

KJ- stop, you are making me blush! :)

Missy- i wish i could do exactly that with my life, make something out of nothing.

Nasra- darling i'm so sorry, there is some stuff going on at home...am just sort of not there in my head, i think. please forgive me. :(
...glad you liked this though.

johnny boy said...

"what could you read my posts with, if not coffee?" -> A Huge mug of beer! :-)
"keep coming again here, maybe we will find the answer to that one" -> u want poor me, to become a drunkard ?? :-)
lol.. jus kiddddiiin... I don drink, btw ... :-)

southpaw said...

****if only i could catch them all down and turn them into words big and flowing like the river, then maybe they will carry me further into making sense of it all**** Fantastic lines and so true.

eden said...

what a lovely poem....very nice!

thoughts said...

jantar mantar :)

Geetanjali said...

"my mind feels like the freeway on a cold and windy day."

Nice!!!

Btw I just read that post abt your dog..:-( I know how awful that feels! *hug*

iamnasra said...

well no worries at all ..Im just giving you a reminder ..I hope I did not disturb you with my reminders...

Take care and hope all is well at home

gulnaz said...

johnny boy again- good for you :)

southpaw- merci, hope you paw up again sometime.

eden- thanks dear :)

thoughts- yeah! :)

Geebaby- thanks, only somebody who has a pet of their own can relate to the loss.

nasra- thanks :)

Santanu said...

I recall a similar feeling when I am too drunk or too sleepy. But I could never have found such words to express it - not in this lifetime! Beautiful! (Claps)

gulnaz said...

Santanu- thank you so much, you are being kind. :)

btw, everybody please visit me at my other blog, my town house at http://wellsowhat.blogspot.com

southpaw said...

Sure i will, ur posts are quite interesting

yvaine said...

And sometimes in nothingness there is most sense!

Paul said...

That's the best outcome to "writer's block" I've ever read!

stella said...

me too. your whispery fluffy cloud of streaming thoughts have whisked me away to a world of imagination. thanks! ;)

Carrie said...

words big flowing like a river...reminds me of a song i used to like.....so sweet.....many days nothing makes sense to me...but that's just life....peace to u sweet lady.

DeeM said...

oh how i wish to be carrried away on those fluffy clouds right now!
Been soooo busy these days! But missing your posts. :

Perfect Virgo said...

"big and flowing like the river" is already upon you G. Sometimes we are too close to the truth to see it. "Estranged" is a good word for a word and I liked the right alignment.

mikki said...

hey Gulnaz
i was just being metaphorical when i said rain is amusing and also, there is nothing in particular i am waiting for, its just that i liked the rain then 'cause i do usually dislike it. kinda weird though...but that is about it. thanks anyways.

Samudraa said...

the clutter of words,suspended in the mind trying to form meaningful sentences..........

vagueness well expressed!

Manjusha said...

Let life take you to happiness. :)

timeintotime said...

Perhaps you're already inside a big river and just feeling the strength of its current against you.

Perhaps with big words all you would build is a skyscraper.

Sue hardy-Dawson said...

Yes it was wonderful, weather was hot sea was blue beaches were white and clean. Still at least the sun has been shining for a few days here have been reading what I missed. Some lovely poems has set me off writing again. I will post some pictures soon I hope

Jaxe said...

you
are
so
random
.
i
love
it
!
j
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gulnaz said...

southpaw again- glad you find my posts intersting. :)

Yvaine- maybe 'coz that is all there is sometimes.

Paul- lol :)

Stella- anytime sweetie! :) have fun with your imagination, i love reading the results at your blog.

Mitzzee- me too!! there is so much i don't understand. peace to you to dear!

DeeM- being missed is such a sweet feeling. i hope you find time to unwind soon. take care

PV- you are being too kind to me now! :) somehow the right alignment seemed 'correct' for this one and yes estranged was the exact word, i wanted. its good when you know the exact word, doesnt happen all the time with me but sometimes i get the right word.

mikki- ok! :) and thanks for stopping by. :)

Samudraa- yeah i am feeling vague and lost like my life.

Manjusha- life will take me where it will anyway thanks a lot darling!

timeintotime- perhaps you are right. :) do come by again.

Sue- your holiday sounds wonderful, am glad you had such a grand time, looking forward to seeing those pictures. :)

Jaxe- random is what random does. :) thanks!

Khakra said...

if my mind goes astound
with too much to think,
i meet the bars around
and have a drink.

gulnaz said...

Khakra- good idea! :)

finnegan said...

Like the roads that intertwine, you'll never make sense of your existence.
Part of what makes this life so rich is the things we can never know.
Or so it seems.

But we always have poetry and blogs to make things tolerable.

gulnaz said...

finn- sometimes my own mistakes, which i cannot account for are the craziest! good to see, my 'scolding' made you come here! :)

indigo said...

your words leave me feeling bitter

. : A : . said...

Sometimes the sense comes out of the nothingness.

gulnaz said...

indigo- well, bitterness is part of the experience. :)

.:A:.- so you finally show up!! :)
i hope it does.

. : A : . said...

Yes I do!

:-)

Anonymous said...

A-
and i am happy that you do!
:)
gulnaz