Thursday, August 11, 2005

bitters

I could write about my old dog that died 11 days ago. I could write about how my, another dog alerted me when a monkey clasped my ankle and how I screamed him and his pals away. I could write about how I missed my friend’s messages when she was in china looking at the great wall. However I will not write about any of those today.

Like the sweetness in a fruit is a gift from god, abundance is a blessing only if so sanctioned by god. Abundance is only half a blessing. That which we have prayed for can yet makes us cry if he so wills it. In a blink a boon becomes a bane. My prayers have always been sort of a wish list but I am going to my amend my prayers now and ask him to make good for me in whatever I have.

My parents are coming home tomorrow. They had gone to visit my kid brother who lives in another city and I can’t wait to wrap my arms around maa. Her warm shapeless body is like a soft perfumed cloud which envelopes me in its warmth and soothes me with its fragrance. One has got a cold and another stomach flu; I hope they reach home safely. I worry about them. They are growing old. Its disturbing to see them so.



Skies cry
As people beg
"No more!"


Strong hands
Helping strangers
Smile

35 comments:

Lorena said...

what a warm story. that is the sweet thing about separating from those we love, the joy in our eyes when we see them again. lovely gulnaz. hope they feel better.

mermaid said...

I always like to think there are stronger hands at work behind the monsoons, not just people dying, but people saving others as well.

Akruti said...

The warmth of a mothers hug and a fathers smile takes away all the tensions and pain from life,u feel so secure and blessed.They will reach home safely,just takecare of them.

deewani said...

I am sure your parents will reach home safely. I hope they feel better soon. {{HUG}}

Misreflection said...

you're such a good creature GS, kind hearted,and sweet natured, I hope God's listening man, he owes you big time :) but seriously we have to be thankful for what we have.. always.. Hope all's well with your folks, a little TLC from you will make them feel like new again. :-)

Russell Ragsdale said...

What a blessing! When your parents return, they will be in good hands. Such is the greatest blessing God can bestow on parents and travelers! You are wonderful, Gulnaz!

Patry Francis said...

Sensitive and lovely from the first word to the last. You have very fortunate parents.

Rat said...

You should write a book you know. Like short stories.

Itineranting said...

I relate to that last bit so much. Havent seen my parents in 8 months & I worry all the time. About the same thing.

Santanu said...

She can't blog, but I am sure she is yearning for your hug as well. They will be fine once they enter your caring shelter :-) I wish them a happy journey.

irina said...

Gulnaz,

I wish I could have such a relationship with mom. We do love each other immensely but life has been pretty tough on her and it´s not always easy to communicate. You sure are lucky and wise to cherrish that!

gulnaz said...

Lorena- thanks and am glad you could relate to it. :)

Mermaid- its such people who make you believe that all is not lost. god bless them.

Akruti- thanks, i will though within 10 minutes of behing home, we'll start nagging each other. hehe

Deewani- thanks and hugs!

Missy- stop you are making me cry! love you lots!!!

Russell- aww you are tooo sweet! thanks!! :))

Patry- *a silly smile* ....and it stretches from ear to ear! thank you.

Rat- if only i lead a more interesting life...;) though i am honoured that you should say so. :)

Itinerating- exactly! it really makes me nervous at times.

Santanu- that is so sweet of you! thanks San

Irina- Our relationships with our parents are not always simple and straightforward and i'm talking about the good ones. there is stuff i wish had happened differently but you just have to let it go. give her a smile today, tell her a joke. :)

Samudraa said...

"abundance is a blessing only if so sanctioned by god. Abundance is only half a blessing"

Intriguing thot!

There is magic in the way one can fabricate simple obvious truths in beautiful words :)

small squirrel said...

ah, so nice to read your words! You have such love and respect for your parents. I do hope they return home safe and sound. I wish blessings for all of you. :)

100hands said...

Will you bite the hand that feeds?

. : A : . said...

"Strong hands
Helping strangers
Smile"

Very nice.

Vasu the terrible said...

Mom is always the best.. The shout and gripe about how unkempt and disorganised I am. She anyway makes my favourite brinjal vadhakkal everytime I go home...

vasu

venus said...

Life is full of colors, old colors fade away, new colors takes their place, sad, joy, fear, surprises; and these are the ingredients which makes life spiceful. You are taking it quite well!

Gama said...

Russell guided me here I just want to say Hi :-) and what a nice blog you have.
Take care

stan laurel said...

yes!!!! yes!!

wow

rubyq said...

mmmm, reminds of the very special "mother smell"
its the most comforting and reassureing perfume in the whole world, for those forutnate enough to have it.

Jamie Dawn said...

Enjoy a big hug and savor the moment...

transience said...

you described your mother's embrace so well. i am glad you're close to your mother and that you can see in her so many beautiful things in your life that have come and gone.

finnegan said...

This is such a sweet thanksgiving---especially about your
mother.

So sorry to hear about your dog. What was his/her name?
Maybe you could write a little something?

angel-A said...

hope your parents' flus and colds dissapear as soon as they see their smiling daughter 0:-)

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gulnaz said...

Samudraa- its a true, believe me. there is magic in the way ppl can make you feel good by their words alone. :)

small squirrel, thanks! they came back home last night and i took mama to the dr, dad hates go to to a dr! :) he'll probably go later.

100 hands- why would i want to do that??

.:A:.- thank you kind sir.

Vasu- god bless all moms! :)
and dads too hehe

Venus- not always, there are times when i dont think i can take it at all.

Gama- hey thank you so much! :) now that you have found your way here, keep coming. :)

Stan- am overwhelmed by that!!! thank you!!! :))

Ruby- aint it so!! :)

Jamie- i did just that! :)

Trans- she is a gentle person who has given more than she has got with a lovely smile.

finn- use to call him blackie, not very original, ha! he had long black hair, he was a sweetheart!!! he was around 14 years old and he and gucci came around the same time, she died 2 years back. she was a brat and he was a gentle as a lamb and protective as a lion. it hurts. i dont want to have a pet ever.

Angel-A- they are better now, thank you! :)

Samudraa said...

U've done that more than once for me,who better than aspiring writers can say how valuable words are....

gulnaz said...

Samudraa- that is so verry sweet of you! i'm moved!

venus said...

we are human beings, we can have tender moments, when we may not be perfect. We should allow ourselves to slack off sometime.

Mridula said...

I too worry, I too can see before my eyes that my parents are growing old. But I am so scared of dogs.

gulnaz said...

Venus, you are right there. :)

Mridula, wishing your parents a long life and health!

anumita said...

The post contained so much love throughout. It also reminded me of mom and how old my parents are getting too.

gulnaz said...

anumita, its a tricky business with parents, you fight them, you blame them and you love them to bit! :)

Pallavi said...

Awww... I can understand about losing a dog.. I have lost so many... I used to have dogs always and it used to always pain me when they passed on... SIGH...

Anyway... and yeah its always disturbing to see the young image of your parents distort into old age and helpless ness..

I just came back from meeting them and everytime I feel that they need more of my presence now .... SIGH...