life seems to be a mystery which unfolds each day as I watch with wonder and sometimes in tearful confusion. I see manifested my thoughts on the canvas of my life like acid reflux...fears, doubts as well as idlly roaming desires. It all comes true. Still the very things that I wanted or I thought I did or which at any rate i should...still eludes me.
I was talking to my neighbour the other day about a lesson I learnt at the hands of a long time freind. My neighbour is a homely woman who is forever telling me how much she is happy that I moved there as I have motivated her to lose weight which in turn makes me feel good about myself. I'm a bit ashamed to write this but somehow I thought I am more mature than her as she sought my often confided in me abuot her complexed; she has some major issues she needs to work upon as she is too complexed about her appearance. But that day while she sat listening to me and told me how I should confront the said freind, which I cannot, I truly hate confrontations! She asked me, one simple question: Do you love yourself? I muttered an..."of course I do" after a moment too long.
That one question made me realize the 'whys' regarding a lot of issues in my life.
and I still don't know if I love myself...I know I should and I am trying now.
So i ask you today:
Do you love yourself?