Tuesday, December 30, 2008

of demon and fairy thoughts

just one more day to go and then this year is over.  a new year and i will find new thoughts, its important to have new thoughts.  they keep you young, they keep you smelling fresh.  some days you just can't find anything new to think about and the old thinking patterns, old and unhealthy reactions, take hold of you, toss you up, pin you down, motionless and inert.

BUT if you can move even a single muscle, if you can make even that tiniest move then you can break that stranglehold; if you just shower and wear nice clothes you will feel better.

the universe, this life is not to our design. it seems we are playing a role in another's production and we could have done it so much better, so it seems at times...perhaps yes, perhaps no...there is only way of finding out:  design the next 15 minutes with whatever material you have at your disposal and you will have your answer.

of all the many demon thoughts i have, there is one fairy thought which places me firmly in the seat and pulls me through: "...I'll be fine inshallah..."  

11 comments:

mermaid said...

I like your acceptance of both the demon and fairy thoughts. Even in the darkest thoughts, there is a wisdom so profound. It takes a bit of effort to find it, but if you do, congratulations!

Happy New Year, Gulnaz!

gulnaz said...

mermaid- yes its tough to find those darn nuggets but they are there :) happy 2009!

{illyria} said...

happy new year, my dear! it's great how you juxtapose these two. one and the other, in reality, make life what it is.

Pallavi said...

Wishing you many happy thoughts and lots of fairy wishes.. Happy New Year.. !!

Devika said...

Not "I'll be fine"

to me it's "I AM FINE" Always, even when I doubt God's hold. Infact No longer do I doubt that...

Good post, Gulnaz...
seems you have decided not to come my way..

anyway, no issues..Absolutely your choice :)

Wish you a Happy New Year, Gulnaz...
devika

Yafiah said...

Happy New Year Gulnaz! I like to think of it as choreography. If I choreograph a part of my day differently - anything- then there is less chance of becoming fixed in old paradigms. A shower is a good energy mover, so is a dance around the kitchen when no-one is watching.smandeyo

C.J.Duffy said...

Happy New Year and lets hope it brings all we need inshallah.
x

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gulnaz said...

illyria- thanks sweetie! life is all about juxtaposition ...or so it seems to me at times. ;)

Pallavi- to you too! :)

Devika- i'm soo lazy...thanks!!

Yafiah- i like what you have written, great!

CJ- inshallah xox

Violetwrites said...

I enjoy your focus on spirituality

gulnaz said...

violetwrites- well for somebody who is losing her religion.... i try to hold on to it...my faith has been important to me but its sort of going through growing up pains....perhaps :)