as i watch it flow, life plays evernew tunes. there are twin themes which have been runnning with me lately; discovering small-mindedness in people hitherto i thought incapable of and discovering good will in places not noticed or suspected earlier.
the former is tough to even acknowledge; leave alone confront...so i just go along maybe with a tarnished smile and behave with them as if nothing has changed but even they are aware that the ground has shifted, a tad off-center.
the latter on the other hand leave me stumped! if the former thread is trying to cure me of my trusting ways then why is the latter loop running simultaneously?
i don't want to become 'astringent-ly'; i prefer trusting people and honestly speaking i don't even have the smarts to be anything else.
yet then how does one handle hurt, more importantly how does one let go of those tiny niggling toe-biting things and let go I must as I could never bring myself to confront them, which is another failing in me, i guess.
I am completely uncomfortable with scenes and absolutely reject clarified or forced bon homie. having said that, i believe relationships are perpetually in motion and time sorts things out as much as we do ourselves not by forcing a face-off but by simply growing larger than the situation.
relationships are those comfortable seats we rest our beautiful behinds upon and they are bound to go through wear and tear as does everything else in life and in a similar way, we grow even fonder of them and recognise where they fit best and which lumpy areas to avoid.