Monday, November 10, 2008

yet a new turn

as i watch it flow, life plays evernew tunes.  there are twin themes which have been runnning with me lately; discovering small-mindedness in people hitherto i thought incapable of and discovering good will in places not noticed or suspected earlier.

the former is tough to even acknowledge; leave alone confront...so i just go along maybe with a tarnished smile and behave with them as if nothing has changed but even they are aware that the ground has shifted, a tad off-center.

the latter on the other hand leave me stumped!  if the former thread is trying to cure me of my trusting ways then why is the latter loop running simultaneously?  

i don't want to become 'astringent-ly'; i prefer trusting people and honestly speaking i don't even have the smarts to be anything else.

yet then how does one handle hurt, more importantly how does one let go of those tiny niggling toe-biting things and let go I must as I could never bring myself to confront them, which is another failing in me, i guess.

I am completely uncomfortable with scenes and absolutely reject clarified or forced bon homie.  having said that, i believe relationships are perpetually in motion and time sorts things out as much as we do ourselves not by forcing a face-off but by simply growing larger than the situation.

relationships are those comfortable seats we rest our beautiful behinds upon and they are bound to go through wear and tear as does everything else in life and in a similar way, we grow even fonder of them and recognise where they fit best and which lumpy areas to avoid.

19 comments:

MOHAMMED FARHAN KHAN said...

woww...well u r a terrific writer,u r looking much like a poet,diffrent from others.

you knw wat, some of ur paragraphs are so difficult, that i have to take dictionary to understand it ....hehhehe....

try to write on some present issues related to different topics,...

C.J.Duffy said...

You really are the conjourer aren't you? Twisting words and paragraphs to suit your emotion. And that emotion, that honesty sparks and fires and leaps from the screen.

I to dislike false bon homie but I like your real internet friendship and the way you write.

gulnaz said...

farhan- thanks... i'm afraid i don't much like to write on politics here...am quite disgusted with politics and then there are people who do it better than me... :)

CJ- you are a sweetie!!! thankss! xox

Devika said...

hi Gulnaz!

you seem, really seem to be my kindred soul..

but, if what you say is as easy as it is, for you to act on -- may be i would need to talk to you..

or does it make a difference..i now begin to feel it is as easy as it is said!!

good post Gulnaz...

wishes!
devika

mermaid said...

Acceptance, for all that occurs within you.

Sam!! said...

Impressive piece of writing.. glad to read ya:))

Take care

Amalendu said...

nicely written and lucid too....

africanfragments said...

hey gulnaz, i have been really enjoying getting to know you, though continents and oceans may seperate us, i feel a kindred spirit when i read your words...keep posting girlfriend...there is always a relationship waiting to happen, good or bad, it's about experiencing life...i am with you in spirit if not in person

Mystic_me said...

Hi Gul,
what an emotional post and hw easily you describe ur emotions in words i wish life was dis easy for you! you knw You are a complete human being and perfect in every sense. Its wonderful dat u still trust in poeple dat is wat makes You special n diff. Trust d help n love coming ur way fm unknown quaters bcz dat is a sign fm God dat he is making sure You are happy no matter wat...so smile babes and next time i wana see a effervescently happy post fm You vich i am sure wll do!
TKCR
:D

MOHAMMED FARHAN KHAN said...

hmm....dont worry ...i enjoyed ur these types of articles also .....

gulnaz said...

devika- i think its as easy or as complicated as we want it to be...think about it. ;)

mermaid- yea, its the key.

sam- thanks! ;)

amalendu- thank you :)

africanfragments- hey i hope we our developing a lasting freindship here. i really like you; you are this strong, indepenedant and yet...all heart person and that's what i really love about you.

mystic_me- thanks and i'm incorrigibly naive and what the heck i'm fine this way! ;) and hey sweetie i'm happy...thanks!

farhan- thank you

C.J.Duffy said...

PS. You may have a beautiful behind but I on the other hand have a rather hary one!
;)


dogis is your word verification. Is that one more than two dogies?

gulnaz said...

cj- LOL! but of course its two doggies :) and your word verification is volon...what could that be now???

Janice Thomson said...

Love the metaphor Gulnaz. Never thought of it that way but makes sense when you write about it. :)

Patry Francis said...

Hi Gulnaz, It's been far too long since I visited. For a while, I was being diverted by a noisy advertisement...Anyway, so good to see that you are still spinning your lovely words...

ray said...

Hi,

I was reading ur blog posts and found some of them to be very good.. u write well.. Why don't you popularize it more.. ur posts on ur blog ‘~Apple Pathways~’ took my particular attention as some of them are interesting topics of mine too;

BTW I help out some ex-IIMA guys who with another batch mate run www.rambhai.com where you can post links to your most loved blog-posts. Rambhai was the chaiwala at IIMA and it is a site where users can themselves share links to blog posts etc and other can find and vote on them. The best make it to the homepage!

This way you can reach out to rambhai readers some of whom could become your ardent fans.. who knows.. :)

Cheers,

gulnaz said...

Janice- thanks! glad you liked it so :)

Patry- Yea but i am glad that you still remember me and visited, thanks!!

Ray- thanks and am glad you liked my posts, i hope you visit again. :) ...am just too lazy

gel said...

profound thoughts
I especially love your writing in the last paragraph.
Hugs,
Gel

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