Wednesday, August 09, 2006

strange times

there come a time to let go of expectations...for a healing which is hurtful and sometimes in a not so good way..is there a justification for such times. there is a time for chemicals coursing through your veins...there is time for frivolity and for kissing strangers...there are times when you don't make sense to anybody least of all to yourself...a time to forgive yourself and to forgive others, a time to forget some and a time not to forget many. a time to play the clown...a time when your tiny presence is enough to reassure somebody...aint it amazing the times we go through.

29 comments:

Misreflection said...

I find there is always justification if you look hard enough, its the acceptance that's the most difficult to deal with. We make the mistake of wanting to forget but if you think about it there is no need as even the most hurtful memories have their place to remind us maybe..long after the emotion leaves.

Pallavi said...

Well sometimes and more often than not there is justification.. for us.. mere mortals there is always a lesson and the path to self growth..

Anonymous said...

Life hold so many meaning...its colors changes when you tatse different waters...Cheer up...it all begins with love from here as I can see and it will sure give the rope to cling and then strive to flame in hope

Nasra

mermaid said...

Yes.

Hazel Dream said...

hmm dont steal modesty from life .. lets be grey and ordinary.
so where are you from ??

gulnaz said...

missy- u r right, acceptance is tough!

nasra- u r an inspiration, girl! ;)

mermaid- thanks sweetie!! :)

hazel dream- why do you choose to be grey and ordinary...its ok if you are crow, u have no choice, in that case...;)

am from india...but not from mumbai...keep guessing.;)

Cocaine Jesus said...

amazing indeed. good to have you back though.

Sue hardy-Dawson said...

Hurray, you're back, we've all been so worried-yey

**SilvermOOn**GEL said...

A deep post and I won't do it injustice by trying to see inbetween the lines. I'll just let it by listening kindly.
As you know, you've been missed so much. I had just found you shortly before you needed to leave.
Whatever you decide to do, know that we all care.

Hazel Dream said...

lol . I would love to be a crow, scavenger, sinner, honest and relish life without any guilt but ahhh too much humanity is bad and I am realisng it .

By the way I am still wondering how did you reach my blog????????
who are you dear Penguin ..

gulnaz said...

cj, sue - thank u and its because of freinds like you that i'm back even though i don't think am really up to blogging anymore but it is for the human connection across ether which some where along the line has evolved into freindships.

silvermoon gel- thank you and its wonderful to know, really really wonderful that i'm cared for....thank you...if that word is enough.

gulnaz said...

hazel dream- there is a comment by you on my post dated nov 12 2005, which led me to you....i hope you did not take offence to the crow comments, the only crows i like are singing ones....there is an old band by the same name.

relishing life is a very humane trait...:)

timeintotime said...

I've heard people say, "If I could go back and live my life again I wouldn't change a thing." Brother! I would!

You make the more challenging times sit so peacefully together amongst others, and when all we have is retrospect I think that's a graceful thing to do.

I enjoyed reading this one.

Hazel Dream said...

hmm I am still confused about humanity dear Penguin

Russell Ragsdale said...

I'm happy for a moment, I just graded my last paper for my classes which ended Friday and I am saying hi to Gulnaz - these things for sure are good!

There is a happy poem inside me, dancing like a small bird in a spray of water on a sunny day.

Roger Stevens said...

...and times for popping by the Gulnaz Blog and finding her in. What a nice surprise.

Hi there.

XXX

gulnaz said...

timeintotime- i'm flattered that you find grace in these words...perhaps it comes with acceptance...am honoured...:)

hazel dream- maybe i would explain better if i understood what confused you about humanity...am sorry i didnt really get your point...

russell- now sit down sir and capture that singing bird of a poem, i would love to read it! :)

roger- thank you, its such a good feeling to be called a nice surprise...XXX

the woman said...

The times when i feel like a complete fool. Sheesh, you wrote it for me, didn't you?! :P

Miss you loads and loads!

*hugs*

gulnaz said...

woman- for you...for me... do u know u r such a sweetheart! hugs!!!

Hazel Dream said...

relishing life is a very humane trait...:) ----- I was talking about this trait of humanity .. Relish is same as guilt most of time

Hazel Dream said...

but I liked your confidence . hmm so you know everything about humanity . like to be my guru

Anonymous said...

I remember when you first came by my blog,I read your first post,you started your journey way after i did,but you made this place your virtual home and we both kept visiting eachother and one day i saw you as a very good writer whom everyone knew in blogworld,i was so proud to be known to you through blogs.And you vanished suddenly! ! !
No answers to any of the comments here,dint know how to reach you,there were people who kept enquiring,all we got was silence.It hurt,fear gripped maybe because genuinely we felt this is our place we live in,make friends with and we are in touch till we can.The fear that something might have gone wrong with you made me keep praying for you.,Just hoping that one word from you that you are fine will appear here kept me coming here again and again.

And it did,you are back,i felt so angry now that i wanted to shout at you for disappearing just like that,i know there might have been reasons,but wanted to let you know that i missed you dear gulnaz.i no longer write at AKRUTI {alochana} but i kept coming here again and again.So many changes from then till date and glad you are here now:) if you plan to continue writing then i will sure come here with my new ID:)

Neelima

slim whale said...

and the time will come when everything just screeches to a halt. and then, silence.

nomadic_waves said...

Dropped by..

Anil P said...

When the tide waits for some, the time doesn't.

Fakhr said...

Thankgod you are back, please don’t leave us ever again!


I see people are so much afraid that you will vanish again that no one is simply saying that we all are very angry with you the way you disappear!

Jyotsna said...

Just a warm warm welcome back :)
hugs

Patry Francis said...

Gulnaz: So happy to see you posting--even if only briefly--and to know that you are okay. Wishing you all good things.

gulnaz said...

hazel dream- well not pleasures need to be guilty and actually beyond a point guilt can kill the pleasure, at least for me. i'd love to be your guru...its just that i'm a very hard task master....:)

neelima- what do i say to your warm words....please feel free to scold me...i'm sorry, i should have posted some word about me being ok...forgive me...please.

slim whale- will that silence be scary or will it be the peace we need...i wonder.

nomadic waves- ...thank you

anil p- time is not always right

fakhr- welll, i don't know quite what to say...thank you? :)

jyo- mmmm.....that was a lovely hug!! :))

patry- thank you very much...i'm not totally back to posting, there is something missing....just dont know what to write anymore but i'm glad to be back and am ok...thank you for your wishes...i read your lovely words at nasra's...thanks!