Monday, October 03, 2005

strawberries and cream in a blender

music coursing through the body, heartbeats getting louder. baby move closer, its our turn tonight. feel my hips sway to your beat, let me close my eyes. take this world away tonight, dont let the sun rise on tomorrow. let this night be all there is. let us be all there is. we move apart, we come closer, you spin me around, oh baby my head's gone the way of my heart. i feel the music through you. i don't recognise you, you don't know me but you see the light in my heart and your hands will keep the winds away.

serenity i wrap around me, a cloak hiding the turmoil inside. will you hold me when it slips down my shoulders.... oh honey will you talk to me when i wake up in the middle of the night with nothing but darkness holding us together? when i scream, hold me down, if i run, wait for me. love will come for us with the sun. if you hold me i will make your dreams come true. i am not sweet as you my angel and i will scratch till you bleed but i will be there licking your wounds and i will make you a love sweeter than wine. oh baby let me be your girl tonight...not just tonight but for all the nights to come.

like little bits of torn paper caught in the backstream of a fast moving car, bits of words twirl before my eyes faster than i can voice them. like the sky turning pink at the coming of dusk, my thought turn pinkish at the thought of you. you who are not there, you who are only in my mind.

...thoughts the shade of crushed strawberries in cream

39 comments:

Pecos Blue said...

Wow that is wild. I like the last paragraph--not sure if I understand it all. But if I do then I too like this part of my mind and thoughts with all the possibilities both real and unreal.

Broken Spectre said...

I'll drink to this! Your mind is a wonderful place to dance. Enjoyed your sensual prose.

Jyotsna said...

There is a longing in this which i find difficult to convey in words..also a hint of desperation as if trying to convince oneself but the words are of sheer love!
I loved it Gulnaz!

transience said...

gulnaz, your prose is proving to be as mesmerizing as your poetry--a version of you that is heartwrenchingly unique and just as beautiful. well done!

Misreflection said...

Bittersweet- such longing such yearning, such pleading.. no place for such in reality.. ;-)

gulnaz said...

Pecos Blue- thanks girl! like everything in the world we are free to interpret things the way we want them and i like your perspective on it, thanks!

Broken Spectre- cheers! :)
thank u. :)

Jyo- you are right...and i am glad you enjoyed it. :) thanksssssss!

transi- am honoured that you think so, really i am....being such a fan of yours! thanks!

Missy- ....no??? mon dieu! what shall i do! *sighs* ;)

Paul said...

Well Gulnaz, it all sounds good except the part about the guy bleeding.

I hate it when that happens.

Maybe you could have shorter fingernails? For sure keep sharp objects away on these occasions, ha ha...

Carrie said...

longing and yearning, a dreamers world, and if it were not for dreams, what would be the purpose of living. brilliant! Brava!

Sue hardy-Dawson said...

lovely and plaintive, beautifully done

gulnaz said...

Paul- hehe :)

Mitzi- exactly! thanks girl!!

Sue- thanks sweeitie!

venus said...

straberries in cream, just like your last line of this post, and just like your way of writing, poetry blending with this composition!

sirbarrett said...

This was like a slow seductive dance waltzing me into oblvion. I hardly noticed when I opened my eyes and saw that there was no one there. Thanks for the bitter sweet impression. It's something I feel like I can relate to.

mermaid said...

"serenity i wrap around me, a cloak hiding the turmoil inside. will you hold me when it slips down my shoulders.... oh honey will you talk to me when i wake up in the middle of the night with nothing but darkness holding us together?"

My favorite. Are these lyrics to a song??

Ash said...

I like the way you write ... your thoughts slow out in a tumble of words, ina the sme lfow as they come to mind ... and it's intriguing for us readers to watch that happen.

small squirrel said...

wow.
the thing I really admire about you, gulnaz, is that you are not a "one note" writer... you can write about color or all matter of things... erotica also... fluidly... there is no hesitation... I am impressed

"if you hold me i will make your dreams come true. i am not sweet as you my angel and i will scratch till you bleed but i will be there licking your wounds and i will make you a love sweeter than wine. oh baby let me be your girl tonight...not just tonight but for all the nights to come."

I loved the desperation in this bit.

stella said...

such a beautiful love letter to someone you know is out there even if the physical evidence remains unclear. keep holding on, he's most likely near...

rusty said...

I loved the last para of this post.....the rest is beautiful as well....

eden said...

another fantastic writing here!

gulnaz said...

Venus- thanks girl, glad you liked its taste. :)

sirbarrett- well, that has its own particular sweetness, right. :) thanks!

mermaid- no they arent lyrics from anywhere, though while writing it, i could hear a trance kind of music in my head with lots of violins, perhaps you picked up on that, am surprised or maybe i shouldnt be, you are such a perceptive lady. :)

Ash- thanks! am happy that you enjoy my stuff! :)

small squirrel- you rememberd the post about colours! wow! thanks, that means so much to me! thank you so much, i am not sure if i am worthy of your praise but i'm happy nonetheless, thanks. :)

stella- i hope so girl! ;) thanks!

rusty- thanks, glad you thnk so!

Eden- and you are a pal to say that! :)

Potted-flower said...

Mmmmmmm.

Yummy.

jonny ragel said...

wow. so lush and romantic.

sounds like a lucky boy to me- whoever he is.

Lorena said...

i'm with mermaid, it sounded like a song which is great because your writing had such sultry rhythmn. it was so tender and sweet and i love how you wrap it up at the end.
this is hope dancing.
lovely trance you leave us in.

the woman said...

The thing is, strawberries in cream make me feel kinky... oooo... yummy :P

It's a good one.

Moon said...

all is very touching, in a very familier way...all is very filmographic, i can see it infront of my eyes, very colored very swirilling, till i'm getting ever so dizzy, but i'm hungging on to this line most of all : ".... oh honey will you talk to me when i wake up in the middle of the night with nothing but darkness holding us together?"

iamnasra said...

Im wrapped, no knowing is its embrace or my embrace that want me to linger there forever between its silky sheets...
the aroma of romance remains in the air...the scent that pulls me to eveporate with it....

Totally magical Gulnaz

Pincushion said...

This is gossamer softness woven into words..pirouetting between prose and poetry!

Lovely!
:)

Perfect Virgo said...

Imagine when "they" are not just in your mind but real. Imagine the sweetness of that forbiden fruit. Then imagine somehow coming to terms with that real longing and need. It scrapes at your insides and tears holes in your head. I have a very good friend. You describe it well G.

Rare Blue said...

Words.

How simple they are in the singular... how powerful when strung together. Not pearls. No. Something more glittering and pretty, even in the dark of our inner rooms.

G.

timeintotime said...

I am a shred in your last paragraph, enjoying your projection, your momentum.

Brood Mode said...

lovely piece. very passionate...

Cocaine Jesus said...

this swings like jazz.
but sweet and slow with a rythmn of its own.
so close to my heart that i feel its pulse.
fucking hell that is good!

finnegan said...

Gulnaz, your writing makes me feel like I'm your lover.

gulnaz said...

P-f - :) hmmm.......:))) thanks!

johnny crash- whoever he will be...thanks! :)

Lorena- i like the phrase, hope dancing, such a primitive feel to it....am happy you enjoyed it...feels good. :)

woman- you are one heck of a woman, u know that, dontcha!

Moon- am glad you liked the swirling colours of this...thanks! :) togetherness is truly tested in such times, i guess.

nasra- its the magic of your own emotions, thanks sweetie!

Pins- what a beautiful comment, thanks milady!

PV- you leave me speechless!

Rare Blue- yep, words have power, we just dont know how to use them.
thanks for visitin my space, i hope you come here again. :)

timeintotime- god! am i flattered at that! thanks!

Brood Mode- hmmm, there is something about passion, aint there.
thanks for coming by here do come again.

CJ- am glad you could hear the music in it and liked it so!! thanks!!

finn- well, now what do i say to that!!! :) :)

Geetanjali said...

:-) This was nice...could hear Amy Grant singing in that first paragraph!

Loved the conclusion!

mermaid said...

Hi Gulnaz, I just realized my comment sounded like you got the lyrics from somewhere. Totally not what I meant. I know it was you. And yes, I could hear the music, too:)

Author by the brook said...

Ahhh a pretty picture

. : A : . said...

Very sensual.

gulnaz said...

Geebaby- that's good! thanks! :)

mermaid- no sweat! and thanks again! :)

Pallavi- :) glad you liked it.

.:A:. - mmmmm.....

dominick said...

I recommend making a yummy shake with strawberries with soy milk and sucanat.