Thursday, January 29, 2009

c'est la vie

i try to sit still, control my breathing and embrace my delinquent thoughts.  vexed. with myself. things are changing around me, the sun is regaining its colour, no longer a pale invalid but healthier, more robust now...the breeze is at times the exact degree of your warm breath.  I envy the seasons their knowing of time, their purpose, it all leads to somewhere... to a newer place with a regularity which is ancient, timeless.  I on the other hand, an errant lost soul, time passes me by but i don't reach a state where beginnings lead to fullness and endings to closure...for me its all a continuum...i feel i am becoming a river which only knows how to flow and right now i am carrying a lot of debris along.   I have no clue to my purpose, no idea of my destination and I don't even know if there is any goodness in being so...all i know is that it is so and that you shall always bring me sweetness to my heart.

11 comments:

Matt said...

I like the imagery and feelings contained in this very much. It's very nice.

Pat Paulk said...

Gulnaz your words are like fireflies in my mind:Flashes of creative excellence. We all have the debris,it's the dams that create the havoc.

Janice Thomson said...

Ahhh...that age old question of what is our purpose...
I agree with Pat - you have such a way with words that sparks all kinds of thoughts in us...

Violetwrites said...

beautiful imagery.

I'll try to bring you some sweetness.

gulnaz said...

Matt- Thanks!! it feels good to be appreciated so!

Pat- god you are so right!!! its the bloody dams!!! i feel i can't break through them...thanks!! its really good to be understood so!

Janice- you are an inspiration with the way you encapsulate wisdom and a sea of emotions in such few words! thanks!! good to be enjoyed so!

Violetwrites- welcome to this space and i'll hold you to your promise :)) thanks!!! praise from somebody who writes so well herself....am thrilled with myself :)

Devika said...

You at the receiving end is not always fair, Glunaz...

Nice reading, though

wishes,
devika

anonant said...

In answer You are! Therefore be.
Endings are over rated destinations and beginnings are numerous as there are grains of sand it is the voyages that teach and amaze us.
Gulnaz why so poignant?
peace

gulnaz said...

Devika- darling life is anything but fair! and the hard part is accepting that fact...but what the hell as long as we live to tell...lol. thanks for liking it :)

anonant- you are so right, endings are overrated and beginings are numerous...you are so right!! tx...well as for poignancy my life is not exactly peaches but its ok...and writing is a release for me...so even though i'm not a sour faced person in day to day living... this is how i express my feelings and u guys get to see the dopey me.. :)

Devika said...

What if I don't subsucribe to your idea, darling?? :)

devika

Devika said...

Gulnaz, i was just kidding --okay?

just in a mood to fight :)
specially because you never come to mine...

life has always been only fair to me :)

wishes,
devika

gulnaz said...

Devika, i don't mind at all and besides our experiences shape our opinions and that is why there is no one truth. :) and u r right, i'm slack in bloghopping, ask any of my blogger friends...but will come!